ALEXANDRINA AND YOUTH
September 2006
«ALEXANDRINA, I WANT TO LEARN FROM YOU!» (4)
A basic and very insistent note in Alexandrina’s spiritual symphony is the humility.
Her poor rising, in a poor and ignored place, her almost null instruction (no more than one year of the elementary school) will have contributed for her humble attitude. But her virtue is in remaining always humble even when her fame is spread.
Instead, the notoriety makes her to suffer!
In her mystical life, extraordinary, so rich of virtues, she does not attribute anything of good to herself, but everything to Jesus; and she defends herself always when Jesus praises her.
Jesus,
there is in me some thing of good, praiseworthy? I do not feel it, I do not know
it. But, if there is, belongs to You, it is not mine. S (22-01-45)
My Jesus, count always on me as your victim. Do not count on my love, but on yours, because it is with it that I love You; do not count on my generosity and my force, but on yours: it is your generosity, is your force that takes me to accept with joy all the suffering. S (05-04-47)
I have lived only for You and thanks to You. I have never, never trusted on myself. I trusted never, never on me; for your grace, I didn’t attributed me whatever. My nothing, my immense misery, my uselessness is what is always, always present to me. S (03-07-53)
And, turned towards Our Lady, she says:
You know, dear Mother, how little I feel myself in yours most holy presence.
How many times I have said to You that I am not worthy to kiss your most holy feet, but also the soil, not where they had settled, but where they had made shade! S (02-08-47)
Of course, her humility faces always also the next one.
However, she always signs “the poor Alexandrina”.
After that, let us hear the following phrases:
I do not desire to be more than the other souls. I want for all what I want for me: the purest love, more burning hot, more saint love. L (26-07-39)
If the pain of some souls that wound me with thorns afflicts me, I strengthen for not thinking about their faults and say:
Oh Jesus, shape them, resemble to Yours their hearts.
Shape them and resemble at first my heart, because it is that what more needs.
Jesus, celestial and beloved Mother, I am your most unworthy and smallest daughter among those You have in the world. S (12-07-45)
Let us have present that this to feel herself “small” does not hinder her to search to be useful for the good, to become saint developing her mission of salvation of the souls.
My God, I want to be small at the world’s eyes, but great at your divine eyes. L (04-11-35).
She trusts on Jesus:
He can of the nothing make everything. And to the most unworthy and poor daughter can give the biggest graces and full her with the biggest wealth.
I am the most useless instrument in her divine hands. If it is of her divine will, he will be able to make me useful for everything and all. C (06-09-41)
Jesus, blessed be You ! I am small, I am nothing. Use this nothing in favour of the humanity. Receive the prayer of the most unworthy of your daughters! S (24-09-54)
Let’s see some replies of Jesus:
I love the simple, teeny souls and for this reason the neediest ones I raise them to the biggest highness.
The humility, the humility, beloved daughter, how much it consoles Me! It is for that I love you (...). S (04-05-46)
Win, win in your smallness!
All the humble and anxious soul of living hidden is great with its Lord, wins with its Lord, raises itself with its Lord.
The humiliated for loving Jesus is exalted in the Jesus’ love. S (28-08-53)
Let us finish with a fragment of dialogue between Jesus and Alexandrina:
— Oh my beloved Jesus, I would want to give You love, to give You repair and to remove from the world all the badness. My desires are yours: I have nothing mine, but with what he is Yours I can make much thing.
Give me light, give me your grace!
— Have confidence, my son daughter: with nothing I made everything.
In the teeny things I make the biggest wonders. The humble soul is everything for my divine Heart.
From your nothing I raise you to the biggest highness; in your blindness you have all the light. S (17-09-48)
